it's enough now

I remember before, when I realized that I've lost my passion and started searching for things to ignite my passion towards life again. Well, at least I has made the effort to search. Now...I have searched and searched and gained a lot of experience in life. But there is no passion because I have none. I don't plan on looking for it anymore. It probably exists but I'll be ok too...even if I don't ever find it. What was once so important is no longer important anymore.

This is not about committing suicide. This is about letting go. This is about not resisting who I am. This is not about how nothing seems rite. It is about how it's enough now...

(嗨!小弟,自從那天晚上你說要來我家而我剛好和朋友吃飯所以錯過見面的機會,然後你說你會很忙只怕要等到明年才有機會到我家了.那一天晚上,讀著你的訊息,,一種難過的心情在心中煎熬著,想假裝成雲淡風輕卻又不知道為什麼很在意很在意的在黑暗中無法入眠.今天,有句話大哥要告訴你,一直到那天晚上,大哥從來都不知道,我會那樣的捨不得你.)